butterfliesss!

just came back from orchestra rehearsal!
i just realized that the orchestra class im in really sucks!
cause im in philharmonic and its like the beginners class
but im supposed to be in the class cause i dont play good
and today we had a rehearsal with the symphony ppl..
oh gosh! they are so damn good!!!
and they have so many music!!
we just have one piece of music for our class!
WOW! we suck!
the symphony ppl also that good already..
i cant imagine how d chamber orchestra play!
sure play till super dee!
the chamber orchestra ppl will have perfect notes i guess
since they play so damn good!
sigh.
but i am not that good so i guess thats why im in philharmonic!
sigh
i felt lonely there.
being there myself.knowing nobody..
angeline didn't go cause she couldn't play cause of her neck brace..
sigh.
guess thats my life!
cant say anything about it!
just hope my life will turn better!
everytime i go through these times i recall memories!
but i dont want to think more about it, cause i would b gloomy and emo all day..
HAHAHAHAHAHA

i had butterflies in my stomach when i saw u
i dont know why but i had a slightly feel of nervousness
i dont have the courage to talk to you
yeah im a loser
always was and shall remain one

PEACE

★★★★★