:/

sometimes

i just HATE myself SOOOOOOO MUCH

hahhaha

i always do stuff that i regret

ughhhhhh fcuk!

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im just rambling now

cause i need to express myself

ive been keeping everything to myself for too many years

sometimes i cant take it anymore

i just wanna take my shield off

blahhhh

oh whatever

im such a immature baby

and i hate me for that

mehhhh

PEACE

...

people might think im having a great and happy time here in the states

but seriously im not.

idk

i know i should be grateful and stuff but yeahh

you guys wouldnt understand how it feels like being in a completely different country with diff race, diff language, and diff culture

yeah it was worse the last two years

it gotten a lot better this year

cause ive actually grown used to it

u know..being alone

i enjoy it now

hahah

but yeah its still hard..

but idk how i feel anymore

i kinda like it but at the same time i dont

lol

all i can say is

i cant wait for college hahha

PEACE

hmm

i feeel kinda bad now since i told her about it

i broke a promise

im sorrrrry J!

:)

just had a long talk with umma!

lol

we havent talk in ages!

and it was good

i actually hate talking on the phone cause i have trouble listening to what they are saying!

MY BAD

but it was funn

i thought it would be awk since we have been distant

but i guess we just had so much to talk about that it killed the awkwardness

hahhahah even tho there was kinda like an awk pause at the end but..

whateva

it was fun!

i miss her!

WTF

DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA

i had tried to stay out of this shit for two years

hahhaha

well actually im not involved in this but sort of

but i dont know whats going on

i dont even know whos fault it is anymore

her? her? her? or me?

hahahhahaa

whatever.

why do they need competition?

why?

why cant everybody just be friends?

i dont want anything more

i just hope we are all in good terms

thats all

this awkwardness can kill somebody

im serious.

alright.

ill stop!

hahhaha

PEACE